Woah

I wanted to delete everything that I have written before in this blog. I like it though so I'll leave it. I'm just going to start using this as more of a "diary" instead.

I want to start fresh. Write this a new way. It may help me to write more if I don't see it as a chore or an assignment. Something that I HAVE to do. Even if it's only ME telling me that I have to do it.

I have a problem with rebelling against rules, it gets in the way a lot.

I fight with my alarm clock if we don't have the same opinion on when I should get out of bed. I always win. By winning, I lose. I miss out on my whole day. My alarm clock was just trying to do me a favor. It just wanted to alert me that I had a WHOLE NEW DAY to enjoy.

That's pretty special. Not everyone gets a today. A tomorrow.

But I have to be stubborn. I have to ignore it's good intentions-my good intentions for myself. I set it with the hope that I'll hear it go off again, that I'll have at least one more day. One more morning to grumble as I roll out of bed. I should be happy to hear the obnoxious repetitive tone that is my alarm.

But I'm not. I rebel.

Just because I feel like I HAVE to listen. I don't like being told what to do. I wish I could understand this about myself. Maybe I'll attempt to see my alarm clock with a new perspective tomorrow morning.